Firewood & Rust

by Mama Gina

supported by
donnadestefano
donnadestefano thumbnail
donnadestefano I am truly blessed to have the whole discography and the new album firewood and rust it's a beautiful album with sad songs but life meaning and love in the words I love you can do it by yourself I love I listen to it every morning it makes my morning thank you mama Gina
dwelch16
dwelch16 thumbnail
dwelch16 Love this album!!! Songs for the heart.
/
1.
2.
3.
04:56
4.
5.
6.
05:03
7.
8.
05:06
9.
10.
04:18
11.

about

Heartbroken and homesick, what does a girl do but write songs that she can't bear to sing? And then she sings them; shares them with you in the hope that, as the great Spider Robinson says, "Pain shared is lessened."

Truthfully, Firewood and Rust is my most vulnerable work ever, and reflects love that was never love and a longing for the old Florida where I grew up, and maybe never existed anywhere except in my mind, after all. This is how I process, so welcome to my therapy session! Please join me as I uncover all these faulty memories. Perhaps you will find your story in here. Perhaps you will find healing, as well. I have.

credits

released March 24, 2020

All songs written and performed by Gina LaMonte

Sax on To Tell the Truth by Rachel Welch

Due North additional vocals by Kat White Star; percussion & bass by Claire Franklin; recorded & mixed at Blue Triangle Studios, Sarasota, FL by Claire Franklin, and first appeared as a track on the collaborative The Green Album

Waking Panther reccorded, mixed and mastered at Rising Sun Studios, Tampa, FL by John Seda, and first appeared as a track on The Undertaker's Daughter

Graphic Design by Jesse Guggino

Big love to Betsy and Thor for showing me what I could do with a little gear and a lot of inspiration. Thanks to Tina Miller Jesko and family for opening up their home and allowing me to take over the living room, front porch, and back yard for a month, where we recorded the first draft of this music.

Thanks Universe for breaking me emotionally, physically, financially, and spiritually these last four years. I got a fine collection of songs out of it.

www.mamaginamusic.com

(c) G. LaMonte 2020

license

all rights reserved

tags

Track Name: Firewood & Rust
Firewood & Rust
© 8/2017 G. LaMonte

You’re just a broken wagon wheel, only gone so far
Last time you laid down to rest, wound up where you are
There ain’t no fixin’ you and you ain’t movin’ on
The world still turns beneath you like a song, a sad, sad song

You still hear the music, but you can’t make it on your own
So, you tune into the universe on some old radio
All you get is static in this house that ain’t no home
And you wait for someone else to break down real close

BRIDGE/CHORUS
A feather with no wing, a lyric you can’t sing
And you’re missin’ everything that you had before
Wheel without a wagon, fire without that dragon
You are what you are, and you can’t be anymore

A wheel, it ain’t no wheel lyin’ in the dust
No comin’ back from this … firewood and rust

You’re the heartbreak in that song you wrote
That you can’t bear to sing
Reminds you of the love you had – you messed up everything
Hurts too much to try again, so you ain’t gonna let it
Tell ‘em all you settled down … baby, you just settled

BRIDGE/CHORUS

You’re just a broken wagon wheel lyin’ in the dust
No comin’ back from this … firewood and rust
Track Name: That's Not the Moon
That’s Not the Moon
© LaMonte 5/2017

There’s a light in my window that shines like the moon
But that's not the moon
There’s a flame in my heart that burns just like you
But that's not you

What does it say when your world fades away
And everything that you do
Looks like your love but it ain’t
And that’s not the moon – That’s not the moon

There’s a smile on your face and I can see it from here
Baby, that’s not your smile
And I know how this goes and we’ll both be alone
In a little while

What does it say when the colors all fade
Till your whole world ain’t nothin’ but blue
It still looks like your love but it ain’t
And that’s not the moon – That’s not the moon

Bridge:
That’s not the light I remember – the light that I know
The light that shines under your skin
Not the feelin’ I felt when I didn’t know
Where you ended and where I begin

There’s a light in the sky and it looks like the sun
But that can’t be the sun
Because if it was, you’d think it’d be shinin’
On everyone

What does it say when your world fades away
And everything that you do
Looks like your love, but it ain’t
And that’s not the moon – That’s not the moon
Track Name: Myth Addict
Myth Addict
© LaMonte 10/2018

I’m a myth addict – Tell myself stories
Over and over until I believe
The facts, they don’t matter
It’s the story I’m after
I get high on these threads I weave

I am a princess runs with dragons
I am a kind and benevolent king
I am the madman come from the forest
I am the wizard who knows everything
I am the drunk in the alley so broken
And I am the child who does everything wrong
Your stories and mine are so sweetly entwined
You hear yourself in my songs

I’m a myth addict – Tell myself stories
Over and over until I believe
The facts, they don’t matter
It’s the truth that I’m after
I get high on these threads I weave

I am three sisters in search of their fortune
I am the secret that no one can tell
I am the fool and uncomfortable laughter
I am three witches and I am the spell
I close my eyes and I see the faces
Remember places that I’ve never been
I am the hero and I am the villain
And I am the truth that lies in between

I’m a myth addict – Tell myself stories
Over and over until I believe
The facts, they don’t matter
It’s the story I’m after
I get high on these threads I weave

I’m a myth addict threadin’ that needle
Twistin’ and turning, blood and bone deep
I’m a myth addict – Tell myself stories
Over and over until I believe

Over and over
I’ll make you believe
Track Name: Can't Be Your Sunshine
Can’t Be Your Sunshine © 9/2015 G. LaMonte

Slow march of sandhill cranes
Summer long drivin’ rain
Water stands, ‘cause it’s got no place to go

Comin’ storm, clouds will cry
I think I may never get dry
Old oak limbs hangin’ heavy and low

CHORUS
And it occurs to me that I don’t love you like the breeze on my skin
I think it’s safe to say I can’t love you like this rain – never endin’
Fallen short of every promise that I’ve made
I can’t be your sunshine in the shade

Water still, like a looking glass
One breath, the picture’s gone like that
My world is green, but this sky is wet and gray

Wind trails, leaves the trees behind
Out here no one seems to mind
Nothin’ lasts but this constant state of change

CHORUS

Wish I were solid like the earth at my feet
Wish I were constant like the river flowin’ free
I said forever, but that’s a long, long time

Wish I were made of stronger stuff
Yeah, I love you – but that’s not good enough
I can’t love you like this forest loves her pine

And it occurs to me that I don’t love you like the breeze on my skin
I think it’s safe to say I can’t love you like this rain – never endin’

And it occurs to me that I don’t love you like the hawk takes to wing
I think it’s safe to say I can’t love you like the winter melts in spring
Fallen short of every promise that I’ve made
I can’t be your sunshine in the shade

And it occurs to me that I don’t love you like the breeze on my skin
I think it’s safe to say I can’t love you like this rain – never endin’
Fallen short of every promise that I’ve made
I can’t be your sunshine in the shade
Track Name: To Tell the Truth
To Tell the Truth © 2/2018 G. LaMonte

To tell the truth, I didn’t recognize you
I just thought you were beautiful
To tell the truth, I never meant to stay for more than just one moment
One sip of your soul and then I knew

To tell the truth, I’m kind of selfish
I often take more than I give
To tell it straight, you make me want to turn my world around
And find a better way to live

CHORUS:
But when you’re gone, I know I can’t sustain this
Honestly, honesty is not my stronger suit
So let’s skip the pain and heartache before this all begins
This lifetime there’s no time for us
To tell the truth

I could say we’d be good together
Well, you’d be good for me, and I would wear you down
Another space and time, we might dream a real forever
But baby, right in the here and now

CHORUS:
But when you’re gone, I know I can’t sustain this
Honestly, honesty is not my stronger suit
So let’s skip the pain and heartache before this all begins
This lifetime there’s no time for us
To tell the truth

BRIDGE:
So leave me to my love affairs that ain’t love
And I’ll leave you to a better fate than this
I’ll write it on my soul, and somewhere down the road
There’s a lifetime with you someday
That I don’t want to miss

CHORUS:
But when you’re gone, I know I can’t sustain this
Honestly, honesty is not my stronger suit
So let’s skip the pain and heartache before this all begins
This lifetime there’s no time for us
To tell the truth
Track Name: Angels
Angels © 10/2017 G. LaMonte

My angels worry me like a stone in my shoe
My angels worry me like a stone in my shoe
Til’ I get right with them, ain’t nothing I can do
My angels worry me

My angels lay me down like a bullet in my chest
My angels lay me down like a bullet in my chest
So weary of this world – just lookin’ for some rest
My angels lay me down

CHORUS:
Now, I can’t fly … I can’t fly … I can’t fly … away
I can’t fly … Wish I could fly … I can’t fly … but I can pray

My angels hold me fast like a lover in a storm
My angels hold me fast like a lover in a storm
Might be an angel, too; but, oh, my wings are torn
My angels hold me fast

My angels carry me when I can’t get off the ground
My angels carry me when I can’t get off the ground
Someday I’ll fly again; yeah, it all comes around
My angels carry me

CHORUS

My angels carry me
Track Name: One Thing At a Time
One Thing at a Time
© G. LaMonte 4/2018

Pipelines and parking lots grow faster than the trees
That are slowly disappearing with the oxygen we breathe
She can’t save the whole world – But she scoops them one by one
Moving tiny roots on down the road before the backhoes come

You can’t do it all yourself – so don’t you even try
But you can do one thing at a time

They’ve leveled off the hilltops and they’ve stripped the earth right down
Once they’ve stolen all they can, they’re off to kill another town
He finds himself a broken mountain, buys one acre at a time
Hopes to get it all paid off and reclaimed before he dies

You can’t do it all yourself – so don’t you even try
But you can do one thing at a time

One tiny life, on broken wing
One hungry soul, one song to sing
You can’t do it all
Makes you want to cry

Oil spills into the gulf and coats the seagull’s wings
They’d rather pay the penalties for the profit black gold brings
One tiny heart beats in her hands, she scrubs the tar away
A hundred more may die tonight, but this one flies away

You can’t do it all yourself – so don’t you even try
But you can do one thing at a time

You can’t do it all yourself – so don’t you even try
But you can do one thing at a time
Got to do something
Yes, you can do one thing at a time
Track Name: Drift
Drift
© 2/2016 G. LaMonte

Slow she rolls – tannin brown
Feeds the trees that feed her
And when she flows underground
And you can’t see her
She still eddies, curls
Like this ribbon is the gift
Slows my soul right down
All I wanna do is …

CHORUS
Drift – gonna stare up at the sky
Float lazy like a leaf along the way
Sink – gonna drop myself right in
Gonna bathe my aching soul, I’m gonna pray
Rise – gonna turn and taste the sun
And every time my life runs too swift
Gonna make my way down the Santa Fe
Pour myself in and drift

Bend my knee like cypress
Take my time to grow
Feel the water wash over me
Watch the manatee roll
Might lift my head and dry my wings
And close my eyes a bit
Don’t need to do much of anything
All I wanna do is …

CHORUS

Drift river - Sink river - Rise river – Drift

CHORUS
Track Name: Where the Long Peas Grow
Where the Long Peas Grow
© LaMonte 2018

I drew my first breath here
This is where the world begins
The trees they are my body
Her branches are my limbs
I’ve walked every step of riverbank
In times of drought and flood
The water of this land is my blood

We thought to share this river
They thought it theirs to keep
We fought to hold our homes here
They killed us in our sleep
They sold the sky above us
And they took the land below
And they built upon the riverbanks
Where the long peas grow

CHORUS
I was here before you
My body may be gone
You can’t chain my spirit
And you can’t change my song
When all the waters rise again
As they all surely will
This river will take back
Every drop of blood’s been spilled

Cypress, slaves and phosphate
Turned that water muddy brown
They turned that mud into gold
‘Til the railroad shut her down
Now time has turned her back again
And you can find my soul
All along the riverbank
Where the long peas grow

CHORUS

I drew my first breath here
This is where the world begins
The trees they are my body
Her branches are my limbs
I’ve walked every step of riverbank
In times of drought and flood
The water of this land is my blood

Time has turned her back again
And you can find my soul
All along the riverbank
Where the long peas grow

I drew my first breath here
This is where the world begins
Track Name: Due North
Due North
(c) G. LaMonte 10/2015

You traced my shape upon your stars
Wrote my name in your sky
Pointed me due North
So you could find your way on the darkest night
You honored me - Begged me shelter
Stretched me like canvas – Wore me like cloak
To your warrior’s art, I played my part
And I fell in the dance to his spear in one stroke

Your children – my cubs
We lived with each other and that was enough
Took what we needed - But we never took more
Until your lights burned brighter
Than the stars in your sky
And now due North’s forgotten
And now there is slaughter … and now there is war

A war I have no heart to wage
It seems you have no heart at all
And so, due North, your compass fades
And I am just some trophy for your wall
Honor lost, collecting dust
A relic tossed aside – have you no soul?
The wounded – the abandoned cubs
And no one counts the stars that fall

Your children – my cubs
We lived with each other and that was enough
Took what we needed - But we never took more
Until your lights burned brighter
Than the stars in your sky
And now due North’s forgotten
And now there is slaughter … and now I’m no more
Just some stars in your sky … pointing due North

I’m just some stars in your sky – pointing due North
I’m just some stars in your sky – pointing due North
I’m just some stars in your sky
Track Name: Waking Panther
Waking Panther
G. LaMonte (6/2013)

Waking Panther gently from his sleep
Waking Panther gently from his dream

He once walked this sacred ground
Now his footsteps are nowhere found

Waking Panther gently from his sleep
Waking Panther gently from his dream

Ask the Heron, ask the Crane
Ask the Sparrow, call his name
Ask Coyote, ask Brown Bear
Ask Gator, call him here

Waking Panther gently from his sleep
Waking Panther gently from his dream

Ask the wind, ask the wind, ask the wind, ask the wind

We are waking Panther gently from his sleep
We are waking Panther gently from his dream

He once walked this sacred ground
Now his footsteps we pray are sunward bound

We are waking Panther gently from his sleep
We are waking Panther gently from his dream

If you like Mama Gina, you may also like: